Jessi

Shaking

Shaking,

You\'re scared.

This feeling? 

Out of nowhere.

 

What should I do?

Can I calm down?

Maybe... 

Calmness can\'t be found.

 

All alone,

The first day,

Your group\'s gone.

Now you don\'t know anyone.

 

You wanna go,

But you\'re afraid of being alone.

You stay, and don\'t want to show anyone.

All alone.

 

I want this feeling to be gone.

I\'m shaking.

My mind is breaking.

Can\'t eat,

Only staying in my seat.

 

I\'m afraid,

Of a thousand tons of hate.

Where from?

Guess it wouldn\'t even come.

 

Breath is short.

All social behavior stored.

Can you feel it?

There\'s not enough air.

Chest is hurting.

I\'m burning.

 

I wanna go,

In this moment,

I don\'t wanna show.

 

It will be better.

You won\'t be alone for long.

You won\'t get madder.

 

It\'s alright.

All is loose and not tight.

Learn to control.

Put all these feeling into a deep hole.

 

Just lay back. 

Close your eyes,

Try to relax.

Don\'t tighten your back.

Take a deep breath...

Let go...

And after this long, hell-tiring way,

It\'s gone...