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Me (Version 2)

Show what I know

And heal what I feel

Show me what’s right

Or show me what’s real

Stop and drop

This whole charade

I fear I’m fragile

So afraid

Like a grenade

I explode on time

I mimic it so well

I could be a mime

Stuck in one spot

Glue on each shoe

No one around

What should I do?

Care for me carefully

I’m only a teen

Getting drunk and high

Was my favorite routine

I can’t find my mind

It’s lost from blazing

As a kid I never thought

It would be so amazing

I don’t need weed

But I need a cigarette

I’ll take the cancer

There’s always a bigger threat

Grew up thinking

Life was painless

Wishing that my

Heart was stainless

Stains and pains

Wreak red on me

My veins are chains

That won’t break free

I’m drowning in

The things I’m downing

Pillz with chills

Keep me frowning

Struggling and juggling

Relationships

I cry when my chronic

Creation slips

Split my wrists

And paint them red

Spill the voices

From my head

Tie the rope

Around real tight

Hanging from the closet

Just doesn’t feel right

Does not work

So I drop and cry

Hurts every second

Cause I can’t die

I guess my mess

Called life’s in pieces

Wondering how

My pain increases

Weeping while sleeping

Hoe does that work?

These thoughts are crazy

They go berserk

Driving and thriving

Me insane

Numb me now

Like pure cocaine

Take me somewhere alone

Where there are no loud noises

I’m so tired of being prone

To all these auditory voices

Make me feel lucky

Like three straight sevens

Take me up

Straight to the heavens

Ease my days

Pure love pays

Show me some

I’ll change my ways

I’ve been pushed

And even shoved

All I want

Is to feel loved

Life gets hard

As you can see

It gets even harder

When you’re me