Discreation

Too much love

They said she only has a little time

Before she drifts off to the light

After they said that she\'d have a long life

I asked the doctor what was wrong

He said her heart had grown too strong

I asked the doc just what that means 

He said her heart was bigger than it  seemed

As a person made of belief I did not understand where having a big heart could go wrong

All I knew was what I thought i had to do

 

On Her final days I bashed her with hate

I didn\'t visit her as much 

When I did I rejected her

I even told her she should cry because she was going to die

I thought this was helping

I was trying to shrink her heart

She didn\'t know that I was cruel

Because I loved her too much to loose

 

On her last day could take no more

I yelled in her face on how is was her fault 

Her fault for loving everyone and everything the way she did

Why\'d she have to keep loving me even when I threw at her all my grief

 

The monitor started going in and out 

I realized that there was a war roaring inside of her

She was trying to decide whether to Live or Die

1 hour later...

She died

 

For five years straight I have a battle with love

I think the day she died was because she felt unloved...

By me

But I think she got to that position in the first place because she loved too much

 

And even though I still don\'t know

I will always remember my war with Love five years ago