Lost Girl

Perfect Imperfections

At times I feel worthless and like I have no purpose at all, Like I have no reason to even breath or exist as a whole... insecurities run my mind mad with questions mostly questioning myself... will I ever be good enough? That question alone takes my mind on a rollercoaster ride... will someone ever love me for me? Will they love me for the person I am or just because of materialistic shit that can be gone in a matter of seconds... Still I wonder will I be good enough and how long will it take for someone to look past my flaws... a person who can look at my imperfections and flaws without caring about them... someone who sees the good qualities in me... someone who sees how smart I am... how passionate I am about things and people I care about... when will someone finally see ME and not care about my size or how dark my skin is... when will I be perfect in the eyes of someone, but if not perfect at least good enough... don’t I deserve to be happy? I ask myself that question continuously, sometimes I don’t feel like I should but other times I know I deserve to be happy... I just want to be happy and surrounded with love... I just want to simply be GOOD ENOUGH! Is that really to much to ask for?