Damaged Soul

WHY??!!

WHY??!!

 

I have many questions, and such,,

I have done the research for as much,,

 

Yet, I have been unable to discover WHY,,

Someone so young, and beautiful must die,,

 

Oh I realize the suffering must be for a time,,

Yet the challenge has been met, anymore is a crime,,

 

Even Moses did ask our Creator WHY,,

So I am in good company when I begin to pry,,

 

Second Cor. 1:3,"The God of all comfort" It cries,,

Still I saw no comfort on her face when she died,,

 

I saw only frustration, pain, anguish, and fear,,

While I begged for her life, but was left alone in tears,,

 

Some say,, "There's still a need, a plan for me", BUT,,,

I feel, for me at least, This begs the question,, What?

 

It's quite easy to say,, "She is in a much better place",,

What of me? Do I go on with broken heart, and pained face?,,

 

I realize my questions will upset, and put some off,,

I believe my questions to be legitimate, I would scoff,,

 

She was ten times the person that I will ever be,,

Yet she is gone, I am here, and I say,, "WHY me?",,

Comments14

  • orchidee

    You have faced it thoughtfully, I feel. I don't feel you've thrown God out altogether. My 'answer' may not seem any help, if it is an answer anyway, which is: 'I don't know'.

    • Damaged Soul

      Your kind words and support are always a help. Before she passed away she made me promise to keep going to church. I have made 159 meetings in a row.

    • Fay Slimm

      These questions are natural and asked by so many dear friend - let us hope that one day we will find the answers - an honest verse which faces the loss of a loved one with such heart-touching pathos and poignancy.

    • Damaged Soul

      Thank you Fay. I believe that your kind words will see me through this day..

    • OUTBACK

      WHY ? THIS * YOUR QUESTION IS GOOD & NOT THE LIE ! THE LIES OF THE TOLD : THE KNOWN : THOSE WHOM CLAIM DIVINE CONNECTIONS ! TO ASK WHY : TO [CHALLENGE]* LIFE RIGHT BACK - TO ITS CORE ! EXCEPT NOTHING THAT COMES NOT FROM YOURSELF BEING ! TO THOSE WHOM SO (CHALLENGE)* [ LIFE ] * AS WELL AS ALL THE (SO CALLED ANSWERS)* - GIVEN BY [OTHERS]* A [REVELATION] SO IS ! ONE IS NOT A SLAVE ! SUFFERING & DEATH ARE NOT ONES MASTER ! BEYOND [ HOPE & FEAR ]* IS FREEDOM ! NEVER WITHIN THE HOPE & FEAR OF THAT WHICH SO EVER PROCLAIMS ITSELF AN [AUTHORITY]*! NOT KNOWING = [FREEDOM FROM]* THE KNOWN : THE GIVEN : THE ACCEPTED - THE QUESTION* AS WELL AS THE ANSWER - FOR [QUESTION & ANSWER]* ARE ONE & THE SAME !

      • OUTBACK

        THIS IS YOUR (JOURNEY)* ! & YOU SHALL FIND THE [ ANSWER ]* YOU ARE (SEARCHING)* FOR IS [ YOU ]* ! I DO NOT MAKE SUCH A STATEMENT LIGHTLY : [nor IS WHAT I SAY* THE ANSWER]* YOU ALONE* ARE THE ANSWER* TO YOUR QUESTION & IT IS A DISCOVERY* THAT YOU ALONE : SHALL REALIZE* FOR YOURSELF ! NOT BY WAY OF ANY SO CALLED OTHERS ! MAY YOUR JOURNEY* BRING YOU THE PEACE* THAT WILL BE THE [ ANSWER ]* [THAT SHALL SO FIND YOU]* !!!

        • Damaged Soul

          I shall endeavor to perservere my friend and thank you

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        • BRIANSODES

          Thanks you DS ~ for caring so much and sharing so much ~ it is an expression of your ongoing love for such a beautiful wife. Fay and yourself have posted similar poems today and ~ as i said to FAY we can absorb a little of your sorrow but you must share the pain. Where Christian Relations of mine have died ~ the knowledge that i will meet them again in Glory brings some comfort. However I can understand that the loss of a loving spouse is in a different dimension ! Saying "She is in a better place" can only bring scant comfort but the deep sorrow must remain.Thinking of you and praying for you ~ Your Cyber Friend BRIAN

          • Damaged Soul

            Thank you Brian you are very kind, and a huge source of support. God Bless

          • poetboy5454

            You know what? I don't know, and I don't think anyone will ever know.But I do know you, and I do know you'll keep on going! Great write!

            • Damaged Soul

              I shall endeavor to perservere

            • Hopey_xx

              Great write Robert. There are so many of us that question why- and sometimes we cannot find the answers. As Brian said, thank you for sharing your pain, even though we are unable to take it fully away, we hope we can provide some support. You're not alone, Stay strong !

              • Damaged Soul

                You always help Hopey and I really wanted you to know that. For your young years you are most understanding and supportive

                • Hopey_xx

                  Im so happy I help you- we're all here for you on Mps no matter what. Thank you

                • Michael Edwards

                  Why indeed? Why do some suffer and others never know the pain? Your poem poses such questions but I guess we'll never know the answers if, indeed, there are any. You have the courage to express the pain and maintain her wishes which will give you strength for the future so chin up as we say here in the UK.

                  • Damaged Soul

                    Thank you but we say,, Buck up buckeroo. I have no fear, perhaps that is my problem

                  • MendedFences27

                    Fair enough question that all would ask. No mortal answer exists. The only thing close to an answer is that you must go on. Do what you can in life to honor her and your shared love. Someone once said, "The tomb of the dead is the heart of the living." Keep her warm. - Phil A.

                    • Damaged Soul

                      I was so moved by what you said, so emotional over what you said that i simply couldn't answer this when I first read it. That saying I've never heard before. That's why I look up to you Phil, you always seem to have the right answer when needed. She is forever in my heart you are right about that. I shall keep her warm my friend, and thank you for the new perspective as well.

                    • mickey84

                      Moving x

                    • Goldfinch60

                      I too have asked the same question, my faith is being stretched due to the illness that my wife (and I) are having to deal with. I will put up a poem that I have just written about Faith.

                      Good write Robert, asking the question that many ask, may God be with you.

                      • Damaged Soul

                        Thank you very much, it's true the faith has been shaken, but I have no other way of feeling at the moment

                      • Jooles

                        Only the good die young.. ...she's in a better place....blah blah ... such a justified question but one you will probably never know the answer to until you meet her again 😯

                        • Damaged Soul

                          You're pretty cool Scottie hottie, pretty cool indeed. In fact you are as cool as a Yeti eating frozen spaghetti

                          • Jooles

                            Lol yeti eating spaghetti

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                          • alisha.ldn

                            WOW! This poem is really deep, I love it.

                            • Damaged Soul

                              Thank you for your kind words

                            • OUTBACK

                              WHY ME ? SAY YE ! ONLY* [YOU]* WILL WILL BE ABLE TO SEE HOW THIS WHY* IS THE NATURE OF { INFINITY }* ! AS AN EXPLORATIONAL EXPRESSION OF LIFE - AS SUCH - THERE IS NO* ANSWER ! AS (SOURCELESS SOURCE of BEING) - [ NO ANSWER IS NECESSARY ] !

                              • Damaged Soul

                                I'd still like some concrete answers

                                • OUTBACK

                                  THE ONLY WAY THAT HAPPENS* IS WHEN YOU (IMAGINE)* SUCH [ CONCRETE- ANSWERS ] !

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