Waiting

I'm so tired but I can't sleep.
I'm hurting so badly but I can't get comfortable.
I'm so torn apart but I can't find the pieces to put myself back together.
I'm so ready to cry but I can't gather the energy to.

I'm waiting.

I'm waiting for the weight of sleep to come but it hasn't.
I'm waiting for the comfort I will feel when the pain goes away but it never does.
I'm waiting for the pieces of myself to come back to me but they won't for they are lost.
I'm waiting for my body to have the energy to allow me to cry but it never will because I am so tired.

I'm waiting for Death to come but he never will for Fate, she says no and allows me to suffer longer. She is also waiting. She is waiting for me or for someone to come to my aid. I can only say that she will be disappointed if she expects me to come to my own rescue for I cannot.

I'm waiting for my thoughts, for the numbness of my brain to fade away..... I am waiting.......