why is it in every single scenario I am the
second choice
the other girl is always
prettier
smarter
or just
better
i love with my whole heart
i am a big girl but i will always remain
loyal and kind
i feel every slice of pain
i\'ve ever encountered
and i work hard everyday
i have enough money to provide for the people
i love
i have burning red hair and dark brown eyes
i love chocolate and chinese food and the number three
i love cheesy romantic comedies and i believe in
second chances
not second choices
i just can not seem to find anyone who
will only see me and can steady their eyes on
only mine
i\'m young but i am not reckless
i\'m spirited but i am calm
i\'m free but i am secure
i am someone who could love you unconditionally and never
leave
because when i love someone
it\'s fully
i love and i love
so why are these tears rolling and why is there so much pain resting on my chest
making it hard to breathe
and why wasn\'t i enough
- i hope she\'s what i couldn\'t be