Death has always been a terrifying thought to me
Especially when I was younger as I gripped on tightly to the thoughts of lackless frailty and invincibility
Thinking that everyone was going to die someday,
it made my stomach twist and turn
I wasn\'t ready to accept my inevitable fate and that\'s a positive thing
As a child, I probably shouldn\'t have
Now I\'m nineteen, and the death of a girl I used to know, talked to, and see as I walked those high school halls
Has shaken me to the core
Remembering how fragile life is
Old thoughts and fears quickly rule the entirety of my mind
I couldn\'t stop thinking of her
How her life ended much too long before her time
Life is unfair and I started to reach out for an anchor to hold me down
Anchors don\'t exist,
though in my time of gut whrenching greif I realized a few things
Life can be so beautiful,
and the ones I love have opened my eyes
I don\'t know what they intended,
but I\'m not scared of death anymore
That\'s a possibly positive thing
That I can think of staring into the eyes of death, and be okay with it
Or possibly it\'s a negative thing
I\'m young, maybe I shouldn\'t be
There\'s no going back now