I have let them all go, those ghosts from the past
It seems like every time anything lasts, when it is no longer there ,it\'s imprint upon your soul could outlast a holocaust
Right now, I am single and I truly feel like I am lost
Friends surround me now, but it\'s just not even close to the same
I guess I can\'t be happy unless I am playing the game
My problem is, I play it too well
By the time they get around to falling, I already feel trapped, like I\'m stuck in Hell
I want a man who has enough balls to take the reigns
A boy who calls me on all of my shit because he truly cares, not just so that he can call a spade a spade
Someone who adds his magic to my light, rather than leaving me in his shade
I am an expert when it comes to true passion
I have played the brutal field for way too many moons
They surround me panting like a bunch of beautifully hungry baboons
My lotus is alive
In full bloom somewhere upon my sacred lily pad
Looking for the kind of love like I have never really had completely before
I have opened up all of my windows, unlocking my front door
I made a copy of my key to give him once I see him make his move
I don\'t even yet know who this fucker is, but I can fell him closing in on me
I know that he exists and I know that he will be the one
My Egyptian husband, sent to me by Ra, the magnificent keeper of the Sun
For now all I can do is look damned good while I wait
My anxiety is about to become the death of me
All I can see is love and light now, or else I just may be done
Smoking gun
Beast in flames
Creature of every element but Earth
Giving birth to many souls, becoming a gateway
The Nexus
The point between the physical and the divine
Seeing the truth by knowing the signs
Waiting for all the soldiers to about face and stand in line to enter my domain
The truth is plain and simple, I need to find my man
Its like I don\'t want to make any more plans without him, whoever he may be
He needs to hurry his little ass up and come see his Nexus!
8/7/2018