My headspace is not great right now,
I guess I need a timeout to reflect,
Music is playing in the background,
But am too lazy to make out the words,
It seems my feelings have washed away,
Am feeling a little zombie-like,
Time is flying away, but am too depressed to focus,
My heart is not right,
I guess that is the payback for having expectations,
The tougher gets going,
Don’t know how long I will hold on,
Everything seems heavy,
I drown in sorrows alone,
Maybe tomorrow I won’t be around,
But am grateful for the time I was here,
But if dawn breaks without me I will be in a better place,
I hate that noise,
Damn there goes that noise,
It’s me again it says,
I have decided to let it be a part of me,
Damn that’s my trigger,
My body feels numb and heavy,
The noise triggered my depression,
Well I can just say hi to it,
Dear depression I haven’t seen you in a while,
Hope you enjoyed cause Boy am back,
It feels great to be back doesn’t it,
Am lost in this blank world,
My life darkens,
I shiver in my suicidal thoughts,
But I won’t make the decision today,
Guess I will reschedule,
Boy I will be back you say,
Guess I better wake up before you are back,
But for now I will hold on,
Till there is nothing to hold on,
I wish you would go forever,