I lay awake at night
for something to change
then thoughts of my past
make me feel deranged
How could this happen
what did i do
to loose whats precious
not just one but two
i said I would love them
at give them my all
then lost my way
and let them fall
the deserve better
they were all i had
and now theyll be raised
by another dad
I know they love me
but they dont know
I looked like a hero
but it was all a show
I have a love
that keeps me alive
but for how long
till the darkness arives
I never belonged
im just a mistake
I tried to correct it
but it was to late
How can I save them
when I\'m a curse
every time I try
I make it worse
I have been blessed
beyond compare
but now its all gone
a pain hard to bare
all I see
is a losing fight
so I hide my tear
And lay awake at night