This purging happens so fast now
Its autopilots of healing my pain
A trigger went off after posting to 11:11 movement
After receiving a notification says \"can I tag myself\"
My higher vibration said of course anyone can
Then hours later I read the name at the end of my writing
Suddenly I\'m over run with emotions anger then sadness
The private message sent still left unresponsive
Try to move passed this but the feeling is
Unbearable
Why can I feel like this over something so little
Can I not see that the person may want to help my message
With it feeling unanswerable I\'ll just take it as a lesson for later
The next morning it\'s still floating around up there
I play random music to see if it will clear my air
Then I hear the words \"you can\'t take credit for my work\"
This resonated and my frustration starts to build
For this felt like the reason of this low vibrational ordeal
Not knowing if this strangers energy is contradictory to mine
Then the healing voices started to kick in
This is a reflection of your inner workings
The times you would still welcome death
It\'s contradicting the \'who\' in your head
You think it started when running away from home
But it\'s been there from the moment you were born
I\'m asking the universe to help me connect to this
My dad has already awkwardly admitted he wasn\'t there for 95% of it
But still I\'m greatful he\'s open enough to tell me this
My mother confirmed that I stop breathing at a year old
She didn\'t sleep for a month until I finally coughed myself cold
After turning blue I spent a week in a tent at hospital
This point in my life I\'ve experienced enough to know
Just making it through the gate to exist is a goal
But this feeling inside that I\'m still unable to own
Is maybe I should of never really made it at all
I guess it\'s why I never like to hide any thoughts
Constantly in search for a feeling to be known and belong
Still unable to except that I\'m not the only one
There begins again my own cycle of vibrational contradiction
Thankful to anyone in guiding me to heal this inner corruption