Did it hurt you when you tore my heart out?
Did it make you feel like you were choking on your own
apologies?
It did for me.
All those moments we shared, the texts we made, the
blow-goodbye kisses we gave.
All the happiness and laughter and cheer.
All gone.
Did it make you feel better to drag me down?
Did it heal you to wear my love like a plastic crown?
I gave you my adoration, my fear.
Why did you throw one out and one back, my dear?
You came to me crying, you said you were dying.
I tried to help, only to find you were lying.
I won’t accept these soulless apologies,
I won’t believe your choked monstrosities.
You judge the things I say, You judge the moves I make.
I can’t take this anymore, I’m crumbling so fast no one else can
pick up the pieces and I don’t know how much more I can hold
before I break.
Your words are venom, Your heart is ice.
I had fallen for you, but now I think twice.
The blood inside me began to boil,
But you froze it within all this turmoil.
From the start, I knew that it wasn’t meant to be,
I shouldn’t have listened to others, I should have listened to
me.
I’m tearing myself apart,
All the heartbreaks in a chart,
You play with my heart,
You say it’s called “art”
And If I object, I tell myself that wasn’t smart.
You start to shout and yell,
My tears begin to swell.
It happened so fast,
The fights we had,
They’re all in the past,
Who knew how long this would ever last?
I see you with her and how happy you are.
All I can hear are the things you blamed me for.
Who knew something so sinful could feel so sinless?
Who knew something so harmful could seem so harmless?
I’m falling, falling, no way to stop this-- but wait.
I turn back to see you weren’t everything.
All this burning-- The rubble I saw-- was nothing.
I look forward to seeing light.
I look back to see everything was scrapped.
The pain-- the agony-- the feelings of uselessness-- was gone.
And now, I’m no longer trapped.