Even though I’ve chosen
I’m still on my own
I don’t know how to fix
Something unknown
I’ve realized some things
As time has flown by
I have no real friends
It’s all been a lie
They only see me
When there’s no one around
I guess I’m not enough
To lift up their frown
I’ve never been the one
That is cared for the most
I’m stuck in the back
Seen as a ghost
I know it’s partly me
For I’ve cut myself off
But it still hurts the same
Yet they stand there and scoff
Not sure what I did
To make them see less
Than the woman I am
And what I express
I’ve always been there
When they needed a hand
Yet they cast me away
For some other brand
I may not have tried
To be what they want
But I am who I am
Not just a taunt
I do not pretend
To be something more
I know I have issues
Down to my core
I tell what I think
And don’t give much thought
To what I could do
Or the damage I wrought
It’s not on purpose
I care how they feel
But I always thought truth
Made it more real
I accept others
For who I know they are
So why am I different
On their radar
They say I’m their friend
But they leave me aside
Yet when all falls apart
They run to my guide
They know I’m mature
Compared to the rest
Needing advice
They come to the best
But once all is great
They forget I exist
I’m just their tool
Who’s made to assist
I wish I was more
To someone who cared
I want to feel special
Nothing compared
How do I get
The love that I crave
I’m not being selfish
Just want what I gave
I lend my heart freely
To those that might drown
They reach out their hands
And just pull me down
Maybe I should stop
Just find my own way
They only cause hurt
And push me away
But being alone
Without feeling missed
Is worse than the pain
Of being dismissed
At least I’m acknowledged
For the things that I know
It’s not a great life
But it’s better than woe