I don\'t know anymore.
I don\'t know who I am, where I\'m going.
I\'m not sure of who I love and who I crave.
My heart beats inside me, keeping me alive, but it feels lost.
I can feel the emptiness crushing me- the loneliness breaking me like glass under pressure.
I don\'t know where to go next, only where my legs carry me.
My brain is disconnected from my body and heart.
There is a wall that keeps me from life; I can feel it.
I can feel the separation like a headache that won\'t go away, a numbness that makes me strain and fail.
I don\'t know anymore.
I don\'t know who my friends are, who I can trust.
But I push them all away anyway. I distance them and turn my back to take the force of my own storm.
And I still don\'t know........