It’s a wonderful day
Add one more number for how much I’ve aged.
But they won’t see
That the mask that I wear,
Hides the fact
That I’m violently bare.
Playing with knives,
Thinking of ending my life,
When the memories of you
Replays of what you made me do.
It hurts to breathe,
I try to scream,
Nothing comes out,
People even doubt.
You want to celebrate that I’m alive,
When I smile, just know,
It’s a lie.
I don’t want to live,
I don’t want to sing,
But for you,
I’ll act happy.
As if nothing is wrong,
Nothing has been done.
I’m completely normal.
Another birthday,
Closer to my death.
Thank god it is here,
So soon I’ll take my last breath.