You can feel the Winter before the Fall
In the air that cloaks the night
October has come already
Darkness tries to over shadow all of the Light from last year
Yes, it has already been
October third, my flight landed 2017
I was so vibrant. So ready to start anew
So green, but void of my envy
This little town didn\'t know what else to do with me. So I landed in jail without cause
It was all for whatever reason that the Universe had to teach me
I have come a long way, but I have lost most of the glitter that kept me moving forward
I have done so many stupid ass childish things this year
It has been a song and dance, to say the least
Its always feast or famine with me
The visions that I used to see have all been interrupted
I guess that they came upon me way too damned clear
They were stronger than some were comfortable dealing with
But , their comfort is not and will never be my concern
Every time I cater to them, they use it as their excuse for burning me
Every time I find a man, they somehow chase them far away
Make them feel inferior just because they can
Get up out of my hair, go fuck someone else\'s man you ignorant fucking hoes!
I got it like that, I am not sorry
That is just the way that it goes for me
Too bad, so sad
I should have kept my focus so many times
But I didn\'t, I failed to do so
Not much more to say or do
Its like I came here through a looking glass, and I brought
Wonderland here with me
I must have made the White Rabbit late for his date, got sedated from the Mad Hatters tea
I can\'t seem to catch a break
I can\'t stay on top, much less ahead
It tries to make me dread the future, but I am well aware of what it is that I desire and I know what I need to do
I need to take advantage of all of the screws that are loose around here.....
10/5/2018