Fuck the feelings
I climbed the ladder to the top
now I’ve hit rock bottom and fucked it all up
sometimes I wish id die so I could stop breathing
because right now I cant be dealing.
Look after him look after her
And loving them is an impossible dare
you protected her so much you near ended up in a cell
Yet I’m still there through heaven and hell
And as for him he’s a mess
Let me down more times than I’m willing to confess
He’s here now though that’s what counts
No ones bailing out or off to bounce
I just need a break I need time to stop
Cause I’m sitting cleaning these tears up with a mop
Yeah cry me a river tell me how you feel
Just give it time cause surely it’ll heal
I’m sitting here pulling off the perfect cover
Smiling pulling back the tears from my mother
You sit and argue every second of every day
And I get pushed back cause fuck what I’ve to say
And my father so determined to be the man
Big lad aye? Go fuck off keep your 12 grand.
Square up to me see what fucking happens
Ill beat you again and leave the world clapping
And to my little brother my rock and stone
I promise you ill never leave you alone
And I’ve got your back, you’ve my support
Don’t listen to them. Ill never cut you short.
And to my great granny you inspirational being
You opened my eyes up and I’m grateful for seeing
And I know your slipping away tied to that oxygen tank
You told me not to cry but my heart was already sank
And I’m sitting here righting verse after verse
And I don’t know if its helping or if its my curse
Shut my eyes to stop the tears
Got to be strong help all my peers
Build myself up wall after wall
Look at me so afraid to fall
But how can you fall if your on the ground
Look how isolated you are there’s no one around
All those walls keeping everyone out
Its for the better gives me space to scream and shout
Helping everyone putting everyone first
Cause I’m already sitting at my fucking worse
So go on life hit me with all you’ve got
I’m still standing I assume you haven’t forgot
Attack me see if I care
I’m already pulled apart what’s left to spare
I’m so sick of this feeling say a fucking prayer
Cause I’ve held my breath and I’m releasing all the air.