I am always alone after ten
And I never know what to do then
Everyone that I need is in bed
So I’ m stuck and alone in my head
When I’m alone and awake my risk doubles
Because I think of my sadness and troubles
Though the next day I always feel dumb
After ten I’m alone and I’m numb
So I reach for whatever I can
Sometimes I wish it were another man
But I’m always alone after ten
i have to figure out what to do then
I guess I’ll just use my vibrator
And get drunk knowing you’ll fuck me later
Then tomorrow just pretend to be fine
And say all my good nights around nine
Then alone I’ll pretend time goes quicker
And pretend I don’t drink too much liquor
But I don’t because I’m stuck all the time
So I drink glasses and glasses of wine
The wine is no help with my pain
And I know it’ll come back again
But I’m making it through every day
Just for all nights to feel the same way
Because I’m always alone after ten
Maybe someday I’ll do something then
Something better than I’ve done before
Because I know I could do so much more