Endless thought running through my brain, sometimes so strong all I wanna do is go insane, hoping for dark clouds cause it’s usually followed by rain, cause all I wanna do is wash away the pain, that I feel deep inside, to the point I run and hide, lock myself in a room so no one can hear me cry, no matter how hard I try to tell my emotions goodbye, the feeling makes me a coward to the point I act shy, so I look up to the sky, asking God why, looking into the mirror to see the pain in my eyes, telling myself I can do this I’ll get through it I can make it, put on that fake smile cause even women in a sexual situation know how to fake it, preaching to myself it’s just another obstacle I can take it, the day can go by smooth as long as I create it, my life doesn’t have to be in shambles, take piece of Gods word with me as if I just got a sample, understanding sometimes I just have to role the dice and see what I get cause life is a gamble, so now I wake up in the morning look in the mirror and find encouraging words to say, walk out the door and realize I gotta take every step day by day