Felt like yesterday
the day before the birthday
where we talked with small words
back and forth
until one couldn\'t bare it
you who said
\'\'we are stuck together\'\'
would be the one
to fall first
what kind of love is that
I who was ready to fall
and
stay to the end
got meet with tears and scream
all i asked for was to stay
I don\'t care if it hurts
because leaving hurts more
it hurts even more when its from you
who decided to stop believing
in the tomorrow we thought about yesterday
with the pinkies to pinkies
saying the words like a rhythm
going back and forth in our hearts
those words we said that we would be together
no matter what in the end
but you decided to leave
because you didn\'t want hurt me
you leaving hurt me more
it wounded me permanently
like a flashback that gets played on replay
why did you jus not say
yes to staying
and
give me that smile
that laugh
the laugh that liked my stupid jokes
but I\'ll guess is time I\'ll move on
because that is what you wanted
instead of helping me fixing the wounds
you said you created
wounds I never had until now
visions and dreams that just makes my
heart ache
more and more
for every breath I take
you said you were the toxic
in this relationship
I guess you were
because you were the drug
that got caught in my lungs
like a butterfly getting caught with a flower
in mind
but please don\'t come back
I don\'t need another cruel faith
I don\'t need a change of mind
you had your chance
and
you made this permanent
so now I\'ll walk on this earth
without an ambition
without an motivation
without the strength
who kept me happy
who kept me strong
who kept me close
who listened to every word
and
meaning I could say
but I\'ll just lie to my heart
that is aching for her
that I\'ll be alright
just like the words she said
\'\'You will understand\'\'
when I don\'t really understand
my heart will keep saying
\'\'Is you who will understand\'\'
because I am not really the one
that needs time is her
because I\'ll just go on with my life
like I have done before
because that is the cruel reality
that my mind have made me accept
that people will stay and go
or another word for
there will be times with people
or
there will be times alone
and
I am alone
with no one to talk to
so I\'ll be leaving
with two meanings in heart
\'\'I cared for us both\'\'
\'\'not only one of us\'\'
so with this
few words in mind
I\'ll just be ready for the next stop
because my chapter has moved on
to a new one
because now I\'m a new age
with some new knowledge
meaning is time I let go
and
finally move on