Screaming till my lungs give out
Crying till the tears run dry
Finding ways to relieve the pain
I am losing control
Pleading with my emotions to be calm
Scratching deep until I’m feeling numb
Scissors, fingernails, and sharp wooden dowels
Contribute to my loss of control
Pills that never seem to help
Sleep is hardly an escape
Restless nights of fighting consciousness
I’m not in control
But I’ll hide it behind a mask
And I’ll plaster on a smile
Make sure to walk the extra mile
To fake being in control