My mind has been filled with thoughts
thoughts of many and oneself
the thoughts that bring one aching
aching from the heart and around
like lungs getting filled with white lies
and
eyes blinded by a glimpse of perfection
perfection of a soul mate
a soul mate that decided to move on
this ears that heard those soft words
that would put us to sleep and safety
I don\'t wanna know if you found others
I just need to know if you are happy enough
so I can move on and find my purpose
so I don\'t have to worry with this toxicated soul
but yet in all this rubble and ruins I stay
watching over the remains to tell the story
of is former glory and how beautiful it was
but one most always lie to themselves in the end
you never broke me
I broke you with the eyes of misunderstanding
and I understand that now
but I can\'t take it back
so I\'ll just listen to the people who is giving me support
who is kind enough to listen to this broken minded person
that is hanging on the edge of the mountain
saying his last words to the moon that always watches
\'\'She never made me hurt, she did nothing bad\'\'
\'\'Yet she was punished by her thoughts\'\'
\'\'Thoughts that would push away her loved one\'\'
\'\'Tears fell on both sides, but one felt the stronger hurt\'\'
\'\'I might have moved on with my mind, but not my heart\'\'
\'\'because seeing someone I used to care about go away\'\'
\'\'Is like feeling the knife I pressed harder and harder against my chest\'\'
So now I\'ll be waiting here
waiting for a sign from the moon
if someone out there from the crowd
the crowd of people supporting me
is willing to put me back together
and
remove the pain from the wound
that will leave a big scar that will remind me
of the biggest lesson I learned
\'\'Even the strongest and suitable pair can fall apart\'\'
\'\'If one decides to leave for the other ones health\'\'
\'\'both receive equal pain even after it\'\'
\'\'because they can\'t say the words\'\'
\'\'I miss you\'\'
\'\'I love you\'\'
\'\'I cared so much\'\'
\'\'So why\'\'
\'\'I guess I just have to accept my faith\'\'
\'\'Like I was played as a fool\'\'
\'\'And fix this heart of mine\'\'
Kinda funny that my name means
\'\'Gods Judge\'\'
or
\'\'God judges\'\'
because it feels like my life
is just a gamble that has been judged
and is now just a punishment from a generation untold
no matter the effort or time this ruins will fall apart upon me
because this is my faith
and
I\'ll be the first one to fall
so others can learn
that only fools like me
should have said no from the beginning
\'\'Work on yourself, before working on someone else\'\'
So all I can do now is just be happy with those
friends around me that are supporting me
and in return I\'ll offer my time and life
so they can have a happier end then mine