Water peaked into the rim of my nostrils
With every thought of the moment my life partner, came face to face with my devil
The water grew taller and felt thicker
At my fingertips, my heart pounded
A lump in my throat, I carried for years
This time, it shifted and sat on top of my lung
My breathe was harder to catch than sanity
When can I stop worrying?
In the blink of an eye, time froze
My breathe slowly got tired so I grasped it firmly
For once, I felt, safe
A blanket of security suddenly covered my reality of nightmares
Reassuring me of my presence
Believed in every worth doubted,
despite that victim label being sown into my entire demeanor
Flashbacks creeping in, I\'d dream of the day someone would see me,
robust,
in spite of stepping into my devils habitat
Thoughts alone fetched the hollow 10 year old girl - frozen with anxiety
In the past, days leading up to agony, food just couldn\'t stay down, if ever even appealing
After a fair warning of the emotions bound to surface,
my non-fictional Knight in Shining Armour reminded me of stability,
My now
He saw my instinctive tough skin, ready for battle disregarding the war I once faced
Swiftly, my shoulders straightened
My head didn\'t feel like a ton in that moment
And that breathtaking lump, went down like a room-temperature shot of Hennessy
Sharp as all hell but soothing
Seconding guessing became my second nature
But, no questions raised, concerns didn\'t invade my thoughts
Although I was out of my element, relief felt sensational
Undoubtedly, worries for safety were still present
Not mine for once on this occasion,
For my devils