“I drive people away,
that’s what I do
To stay away
myself renewed”
My life was meant
To be lived alone
In spite of what
You think you know
Inside myself
My only home
Whose armor never
Chinks when stoned
My life bereft
I know to you
Seems lonely
Often misconstrued
But joy from heaven
Self-contained
Unto myself
Lives unrestrained
“If I drove you away, please take heart,
my back was turned to all
To die alone, my most fervent wish
—with no one left to call”
(Villanova Pennsylvania: April, 2014)
Betrothed
Virtue is a lover
—that must be wed
(Villanova Pennsylvania: May, 2014)
Venturing Beyond
My life’s been a mess,
but more than anything
—I wanted to die well
To make up for those times
I struggled and failed
—and shorted the line
The people who knew me
were driven away
—in vain their love fell
Making love to my mistakes
my hours were sentenced
—through heartache defined
My life at an end
more than anything else
—I hope to die well
Undeserving of this honor
I know that my chances
—are slim, mostly gone
I still have to try
to take any meaning
—from this place where I dwell
A final reminder
of all I am not
—as I venture beyond
(Villanova Pennsylvania: October, 2018)