You taught me to make paper airplanes,
We were in Chemistry.
In between labs and worksheets
You laughed when I told you
As if you didn\'t believe
The girl next to you didn\'t know,
The girl you\'ve known for all this time,
This girl you grew up with
I watched your eyes twinkle with humor.
You taught me the basic folds.
The teacher was displeased
Her star student,
Her best pupil,
Was now a rebel,
Throwing paper across the room.
You seemed happy when I was
The first time mine flew
I still can recall
The smile on your face
When my eyes twinkled with hope
You taught me paper airplanes in Chemistry.
The boy I\'ve known for years
The one who kept me calm
The one who kept me safe.
You kept me warm some days
With just a simple arm on my shoulders
I was your one who got away,
But you changed.
And changing made me leave.
As children we laughed and played
You kept me company,
Unlike everyone else.
You never left my side
You were my best friend.
You helped me through crushes
And broken hearts
With a longing look in your eyes
We shared one dance.
But then you gave me to your best friend
Would you have if I said no?
What if I wanted to stay there
In your arms again
After so many years
You
The boy who taught me paper airplanes
I\'ll never forget middle school
Our dance to \"Livin\' on a Prayer\"
We didn\'t care who saw
We just wanted to have fun
The sparkle in your eyes
I miss it
We used to be so close
What happened to that boy?
The one who danced with me
The one who always made sure I was okay
The one who wanted me.
You taught me paper airplanes in Chemistry
You were the first
The first to make my heart skip
The first to make my cheeks pink
The first to make me feel wanted
You were all of those,
Even when we were kids.
You changed
I miss the way you were
When you were my friend.
When you taught me paper airplanes
You\'re so different now
Since my trauma
Like you no longer wanted me
We stopped being close
Once you found out
I was no longer the same
He changed me
I was trying to change back
But my anxieties prevented it
I needed my clarity
I needed my best friend
My longest friend.
After graduation,
I dreamt about you
You were leaving me
Going across the world
I held you close and refused to let go
I kissed your lips and begged.
Begged for you to stay
But you left anyway
That dream, I\'ll never forget
It was my mind telling me you were gone
That you were no longer the same
You were no longer mine
You were not the same boy
As the one who taught me paper airplanes
I saw you after that dream
It was all by chance
You were walking down the sidewalk
With a mutual friend
I saw him first
But blushed when I saw you
You silently waved
You didn\'t look happy to see me
That day I saw how much you changed
You were doing things you didn\'t like
At least, you didn\'t like them then
When we were friends
When you were unofficially mine
I miss those days
Even graduation was awkward
I asked for a picture
You barely put your arm around me
You used to be much less formal
You used to be more friendly
I don\'t know what changed
I want to know
What had happened
To that boy
My boy
Who taught me to make paper airplanes
I will never forget these things
Our slow dance
Our \"Livin\' on a Prayer\" dance
When we got in trouble
Our excuse of \"Conserving body heat\"
You apologizing
You could feel me shivering
My head on your shoulder
Your head on mine
It was oddly cold for a late spring day
What happened to that version of you?
I feel like it wasn\'t growing up
I feel like it was on purpose
A way to push me away
A way to remove me slowly
To make sure I didn\'t see
What you were becoming
Without me
Without our friendship
I will never forget our first and last dance
I let you lead
I looked you in the eyes
A bright smile on my lips
Even you seemed happy
You spoke calmly
Quietly
About how I should stop worrying
How I wasn\'t going to step on your feet
How pretty I looked
How lucky my boyfriend was
How he was missing out on something
Missing out on me
Missing out on this dance
How happy you were to take his place
I was happy too
I should have told you
I wonder if that would have changed things
That was the last time we danced
You handed me off to your friend
You watched quietly
I kept looking back at you
As I danced with him
Farther away
Not looking him in the eyes
Barely speaking
I kept looking at you
The boy who taught me love
Who taught me paper airplanes.
You\'ll never know how much that night meant
I wish I could tell you
How you made me feel
How you made me blush
I never wanted it to end
You should have kept me in your arms
I should have stayed right there
Letting you lead
Letting you sway me
Close enough to feel your heart beating
Was it always that fast around me?
Or was it from the excitement of the night
You offered me your jacket
When I was freezing outside
Even when I said no
You didn\'t want me too cold
So you stayed close
Your jacket on your arm
As if waiting for me to ask
I should have
My dress flowing in the wind
You next to me
Calm and collected
My heart pounding
This boy from my childhood
Was being my protector
Making sure I wasn\'t alone
You made sure I didn\'t feel the breeze
You held your jacket around me
Blocking the frigid air
My curls bounced as I smiled at you
That night, you were everything to me
Everything I ever wanted
Everything I ever knew
Everything that made me happy
Everything that was mine.
The boy who taught me paper airplanes
He was you
If you\'ll ever read this, who knows
But if you do
I still think of you
And how we were
Your short hair, soft and shiny
Your eyes shining behind your glasses.
The way you always smiled around me
The worry when you could tell I was sad
You used to want the best for me
Even if you thought it wasn\'t you
But now that it\'s not
It makes me think
What could have been?
Would we have ever been more?
Or were we doomed to stay friends?
People told me you liked me
But I ignored them
Told them we\'re just close friends
That we were since childhood
What if I took the chance on you?
Would we be the same?
Would things be different?
Would they be worse?
Are we better having grown apart?
Do you miss me too?
Do you ever think about our slow dance?
Or what about \"Livin\' on a Prayer\"?
If I\'m alone, I still dance to it
The way we used to
You liked to hear me sing along
You loved my excitement
We loved to dance along
Do you ever think of those times?
Do you ever think about
When you taught me paper airplanes?
I think about it all the time.
I still remember your voice
Which isn\'t something I do
Other voices blend together
But yours stands out
For a good reason
Because you were my friend
You were my crush
You were my love
You were my dance partner
You taught me paper airplanes in Chemistry.