Cynthia

Exhausted

I\'m so tired

I\'m so exhausted

I can\'t keep my eyes open

 

I can\'t keep pretending I\'m okay

I can\'t keep pretending it\'ll all be fine

I can\'t keep lying

 

If I were to write a letter just before I died it would go like this:

 

I felt empty and cold

My smile went unknown

It\'s like hell has a grip on my throat in a tight hold

But you didn\'t save me

You didn\'t care

You forced me to pretend I was okay

You forced me to put on this mask that was fake

I wish you had listened when I gave you the signs

I left many hints that I was depressed

You left me behind

So all I can say is

Goodbye

You would go to my funeral and say I was a happy girl

HA! If I was happy why did I take my own life?

I wasn\'t happy

It was just pretend

I wish you had seen my pain

Now I\'m dead

Now I\'m gone

After I jumped I knew it wouldn\'t be long

Now my body is mangled

So is my hair

I wish mommy and daddy knew how I feel

 

That would be my final goodbye

I feel so empty and hallow

I\'m just so tired

I am just ready to give up on it all

I\'m exhausted

Just exhausted.