Sorry mom
For being a disappointment
I\'m sorry sister
for embarrassing you at school
I\'m sorry brother
Being as ugly as I am
All your friends laugh at me
They tell you they are sorry that you are related to me
You laugh
Anxiety claws up my throat
I feel so self-conscious
The cuts on my wrists ache
I bend with every blow people send my way
Telling me I\'m not good enough
But I will stand my ground
I am tired of being pushed around
I can\'t take this anymore
You think this is a joke but it is not
Everyday I live with the fact that I AM a disappointment
I cut myself to relieve my pain but it only causes more
I can\'t breathe when people talk about me
When I walk through the high school halls it feels like everyone is judging me
Depression sets in
You think I\'m looking for attention
But I\'m really not
It gets cold in here
I scream at you to help me but you don\'t listen
I am drowning in all of this
Anxiety
Depression
Everything
You just look at me, smile, and say I\'ll be okay
that it is just a phase
It\'s not
I drown in sorrow everyday
No one to help me
I am broken
I am sorry
I\'m so so sorry
I\'m sorry I\'m not good enough
I\'m sorry I screw up
I\'m sorry I\'m human
I\'m sorry