i hate to think about the past..
but sometimes i just cant help it.
in a way looking back sometimes to me helps me move on more and more.
but hey at least i get good poems out of it.
i cant really write something without going back to the past.
ive been lazy about writing recently..
but thats because everything is going alright and i dont want to walk back into the memories of my past.
i cant even brig myself to write more for my college essay thats about my moms passing.
but for the sake of my college application i need to,
i need to let the lead of the pencil glide along the paper and finish my story.
i need to find new things to write about...
any ideas?
might as well put some topics on pieces of paper and draw it out of a hat at this point.
this is all part of a writers process,
all part of a writers best work and that best work comes from complete absence.
it comes from the speechless moments and bad starters for poems.
all that is the process for the next inspiration.
i want to write about something real..
not a daily, short poem that rhymes that means nothing to me..
i want to share my thoughts with you.
i want to write for the satisfaction that i opened my heart and worded it in a creative way that im proud of.
i want what i write to flow.
i want every thought to be in it.
i want to take a minute to see if i can word it in a way i would love to be able to read it and say damn thats deep.
its my last year of high school and i want to write more and more than ever so i feel accomplished..
but that cant happen until all my work is done and if my room is clean and i get a good night sleep.
ive been in a rough patch recently...
a lack of creativity,
a lack of inspiration,
and buckets full of emptiness..
and paper without a single streak.
this is just part of a writers rough patch.