I don\'t want to be here
No, I don\'t want to be there.
I want to go to a place called nowhere.
I\'ll lay in the pitch black room and stare...
Hoping that one day someone will genuinely care.
Will they be in time to save me?
Or will I be emerged with doubt,
found in with a dark cloud that\'s pronounced.
I thought I found a way out...
So tired of these damn illusions.
I always attract the broken!
So many of thoughts of mine are unspoken.
My faith in everyone is low.
My open mind to everything is closing,
I feel tears rolling...
I\'m curled up under the blankets.
My eyes won\'t open for there are too many emotions.
Now im bound in this horrific moment...
Although, deep down I don\'t want anyone to notice,
So I leave the pitch black room with a bright artificial smile.
No one sees the difference.
Their egocentric blinded eyes stop them from focusing.
Because with their problems, I deal.
I listen with my mouth sealed.
I\'ve learned that my input doesn\'t matter,
they have selective hearing.
Don\'t you dare say something that\'s unflattering.
I want everyone to leave me alone so I can heal,
My job here and there is to be the shoulder, it has been revealed.
My own emotions I don\'t want to feel.
I\'m so lost, nothing feels real.