when you still had breath in your body i loved you dearly. but still something in me wishes i loved you a little more harder. held on a little more longer. the guilt ebbs & flows. you never realize just how much someone means to you until they pass away. you reflect on how they impacted you as a person. you begin to reminisce on those beautiful, intimate moments that only you two shared & wish there was some way you could go back & relive them. i wish that you weren\'t snatched from me so early & unexpectedly. you\'ll forever live in my heart & the deepest part of my mind. i can still see you when i dream sometimes. there\'s no way on earth i would be able to forget your beautiful soul. even if i was able to live to see 3018 i\'d still remember you. you mean that much to me.