I miss my creativity
Scared of rejection
I’m not that strong
To deal with persecution
I know everyone feels the same
Only some don’t hold back
Guess I’m not one
I just give up
I’m being stubborn
I’m being stupid
That’s my downfall
Stuck in the middle
I’m safe right here
Why risk falling
Because I could win?
Not likely
Nothing is real
All is just chance
Tired of standing still
But afraid to move on
They say just push through
Sounds easy enough
Can’t get the courage
Something holds me back
I know I’m good at what I do
But there’s more to talent
People don’t have to be great
To win the spotlight
They just need courage
And people by their side
I’m a nobody
Who really doesn’t try
Everything I’ve done
Was because of someone else
They forced me to see
That I can do more
The things I love most
Include writing and acting
Neither I strive for
They’re not dependable
Acting is worse
You need connections
I was in drama
Didn’t like the teacher
She made me feel like shit
I cried a lot that year
I never fit in
Partly my fault
I shouldn’t have left
But I couldn’t keep going
So I just gave in
To the fear that I held
Was tired of trying
Being ok with nothing
I wanted to scream
Pay attention to me
I know that is selfish
It’s not what it seems
I didn’t care for the spotlight
Just wanted to matter
I felt like what I did
Didn’t make a difference
I could easily be replaced
My presence meant nothing
I was treated like a nobody
Guess that’s what I was
People ignored me
No one wanted to help
I was the last
They put me aside
Didn’t consider my feelings
Got tired of trying
I don’t know what I’m saying
Just that I’m scared
I don’t want to be stuck
Blending with the rest
At the same time though
I’m not like the rest
If you think about it
I’m actually behind
People moving on
I’m left right here
Too many reasons
That push me down
My mother is scared
She’s lost enough
I can’t even drive
It would be dangerous
How am I to grow up
If I’m not shown how
They don’t let me experience
The things I’m supposed to
I’m constantly frustrated
I pretend it’s not there
Nothing I can do
Just hope that it changes
Too much to say
Doesn’t make a difference
You’ve heard it before
What’s the point
There is no ending
Going in circles
What will happen
Just have to find out