I don’t feel any better.
It feels like I’m still getting worse, and yet, you seem completely unfazed.
My mind, a constant disaster
I can’t help but feel like I’m not here
I can’t focus on anything but you
Where I went wrong
How I could have done better
Though you say it’s not my fault
I was perfect
If that was true
You’d still be mine
I wonder if you looked at me
If you’d tell me I’m beautiful still
3 days on almost no sleep
Bruises and scrapes along my legs
Puffy eyes and swollen lips
Do you even think about me?
Everyone tells me that it will get better
That life goes on
I’m so young
College is coming up soon
But right now, none of that matters to me
I’m utterly consumed by this
I’ve been pulled under and I’m drowning
I don’t know where to go from here