sometimes i look back at my past to relive those feelings and emotions in those situations just for you guys just to write another poem and make another story and let my creativity flow..
and most time when i look back it isnt a pretty picture...
the more i look the more shit i realize.
my past is full with so much hurt but doesnt the present become the past?
so does that mean im hurt all the time?
the answer is no.
i just choose to dig deep down to my dark place just to write more and more..
just because i write about my hurtful past and sometimes present doesnt mean im not happy.
i am a very happy and energetic girl that just has her days and situations and normal heartbreaks and days of depression and moment of opportunities for creativity.
its just my past is not my future..
for my future i see difficulty with the acceptance from my family for the one i would like to marry one day...
but that doesnt mean i wont be happy in the long run.
isnt it funny how our past is our past but our past was once our present and how our present was once our future and how our future will be our present?
let me dumb it down..
our past was once our future...
which turned into our present...
then turned into our past...
and then our present was once our future that will be our past by tomorrow...
our future will one day be our past...
my past from the last 5 years will not be my future because our past should not dictate who we will become in the future and should be living our free lives in the present.
i dont know where the hell all this came from because just 10 minutes ago my creativity was stuck and this just hit me out of nowhere like a tick...
the creativity latched on to me like a tick...
let me explain...
when a tick bites you..
you cant feel it and you keep going on about your day...
well the creativity was like a tick.
it came to me and i didnt even realize it.
my past is not my future...