Everything makes sense now
it was all for the best the way it happened
Life had to show its misery to me first
before it let me off easy
It wasn\'t going to deal me an easy hand
now I understand
I really wondered how many hits to the heart I could take
how many times my heart could break
I was beginning to think I was invincible
But it still killed me every time, don\'t get me wrong
And right before they started pulling the plugs
someone would save me and I would be revived
but their life support just wouldn\'t last as long as I needed it to
I needed some one to cure me---some one who knew what they were doing
but it wasn\'t that easy
I\'d grow unconscious every time
dead
to
the
world
then my mind started created its own shell, its own coma---a wall
to ((surround)) what was left of my heart and soul
so it wouldn\'t wake up to feel the pain ever again
but then,
out of nowhere---an angel came to save me
called my name and I surrendered
and I\'ve been awake ever since