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Depression

A loving boyfriend, two loving best friends

yet all I can think about is how the pain never ends

a future husband and good grades

Yet I hide my sad eyes with dollar shades

 

Warm food with a roof over my head

yet I struggle to simply get out of my bed

a beautiful dog and beautiful looks

yet you won’t find my condition in any old book

 

behind the wall I put up for you to see

is a dysfunctional family

A family with a mother so far away

i don’t get to see her every day

 

Scars decorate every inch of my skin

a subtle hint to the pain I hide within

Two baby brothers miles upon miles away

someday I hope they come back to stay

 

fighting between everyone I know

i wonder how I have sank down so low

i barely have the energy to eat

yet you won’t see me be anything but upbeat

 

sad songs play around in my mind

wishing for others  to always be kind

i cry myself to sleep every night

and i curl up into a ball real tight

 

bad thoughts swirl around in my head

i cant even go to bed

i sit and think about all my bad luck

i was never told how much depression would suck