I would be lying
if I didn\'t say I\'m worried
I would be blind
if I didn\'t say what I see
I would be false
if I didn\'t say I\'m grateful
grateful for nights
spilled with bottles and thoughts
bottles of the fullest bottom
and
thoughts that takes you to the sky
because the reaper is in a hurry
and
the grip around me is tighter then before
because even if I walk with a smile
I can feel the numbness that was left from before
making every tone harder to send is melody
making every word lose is letters for it\'s lyrics
I know my jokes reaches the top quality
but please don\'t tell me this is a joke
because the strings around my heart
never lost it\'s force
Even in the silence I\'m worried about all of us
just like how would offer my 12 pm to another 12 pm
making the clock going in a 24 tick
because even if I am wounded
I am accepted for what I do
I am cared for
I feel like I have done enough with you
I am becoming happy
something the hangman searched for years to come
the day he was born
because I don\'t feel like drone
that works like a slave in the mine of love
and
I don\'t feel like I\'m messed around with like before
like a drunk man with too many notes left at the hallway door
when morning comes
it is at that point I can feel warmth
even if my eyes are tired
my heart is comforted
comforted by the arms around me
making me feel my little happy rain clouds
making me look up to the sky asking
\'\'Am I worth this?\'\'
because even fools like my
that run around biting his own tail
can be lucky enough in a coin toss
to find someone that has a equal scale
that goes not overboard or under
it is enough
for a gunman
doing sins is for survival
but for a hangman
doing sins are an excuse
so find me a name
to give me an excuse to be free
so my stringed heart
can finally gets it\'s grip loosen
so I can finally breath once more
so I can finally be the one in the mirror once more
I\'m not lost in myself
I\'m just lost in my words
in my own thoughts
but I\'m smiling
because my guiding star
has arrived to show me the way
Not by guilt like the rest
or
words of regret
just me being able to be myself
me being able to hear
me being able to see
me being able to feel
Sometimes I have the feeling to repeat myself
saying the same thing in different ways
going a loop in different words
but I do it just to make myself clear
that today I don\'t stand on the mountain
that today I\'m not at the beach
and that today I\'m not away in town
but I am here with her
because she makes my everything
be enough for me
She makes words that went numb for me
alive and awake
She made an illusion become reality
She made me smile again
so I\'m just gonna stand up for once
and
say out loud
\'\'I\'m the worse, but even the worse deserves something good\'\'
because it reminds us
that deep inside
that we are all alive
But if I had a wish
I just wish my doubt wouldn\'t settle in
because being experienced is one of the worst thing
because then the past worries one
But I never thought about it for the first time
she makes a hound like me only bark on command
because she is someone I\'ll smile for
and give up all my empty bottles for
so when I\'m going insane
going wanderlust
running away like a wild dog
then I\'ll wait up
so I don\'t have to walk the path
with the flickering lights alone
so when I go hand in hand
into my faults
she makes them feel right
I am lost in the room
with the four walls
that makes me feel insane
so let my tired soul
just lean forward to rest my head
on you
like the pillow last night
just feeling comfort
so let today be alright and tomorrow better
because yesterday was left in ruins
when the way I am change and I forget to say my words
but just to make sure I don\'t forget it
I\'ll put up notes in my head
that
\'\'I love you dearly\'\'