Looking out

Always looking out

outside in

watching waiting

for the next storm to begin 

staying under cover 

hiding behind

hoping I won’t notice

the clouds in my mind

every step forward

is turned around

im back where I started 

screaming with no sound

Sitting in plain view

in anonymous places

trying to find the gaps

to stay hidden in the spaces

I’ll stay here

in my corner of pain

because if I look outside

i won’t  want to leave again.