I’m blocked off
Surrounded by the solidity of brick walls
Their sturdiness comforts me
Their strength inspires me
I keep myself inside these walls
No one holds me prisoner
Except for my own fear and self doubt
I am my own prisoner
A select few chip away at these walls
The rest walk by without a second glance
As though they don’t see the massive structure that blocks out my sun
The few that see, work tirelessly
But it is like breaking diamonds
I built these walls to last
To outlast those who are only around for a short time
To keep out the pain that brought them about to begin with
One was chipping away for a while
Making great progress
And I too was chipping away from the inside
But just before he broke though, he gave up
I screamed to him through the remaining brick, but he didn’t hear
He dropped his axe and walked away
I cried as I laid in the rubble
wishing he hadn’t left
But he had, so I picked myself up from the dust, now soaked with my tears
Molded it into bricks and built my wall back up
But then there was you
There had always been a gap just the size of you
A place where bricks would not stay in place
They tumbled down each time I placed them back
Could you see the gap?
You always stood right there, but never walked though.
You stare at me as though you are watching a caged lion
There is no glass
No barrier
Not for you
Please come in
Save me from myself
Show me that you are who I want to believe you are
The walls around my heart are solid, but they fall for you
Won’t you please break them down and save me once and for all