When you are far
My mind eases
And my imagination
Unfreezes
I am free to roam
Beyond our broken home
Free to touch and taste and feel
Inside my mind, but something real
When you are gone
There is a peace in my bones
And my adrenaline no longer surges
I can delve quietly into known unknowns
I am free to be
Not the vision you make of me
Free to rest and race and twiddle my toes
Inside my body my bone woman unfroze
When you leave me
I feel at one
There are no despised parts of me
You break until undone
Free to breathe
And just believe
Liberated from your twisted mind
My edginess evaporates and my true self I find
When you are no more
I will regret
That I could never be
The mould you broke to set
Free from your angry eyes
Free from all that you despise
Free from the guilt you made me feel
Free to break poor judgment’s sacred deal