Are my abandonment issues because you were never there?
The technical definition of abandonment is deserted
and you were just never there.
I didn’t see your back leave in the horizon
I didn’t experience your love and one day you were just gone
you were simply never there.
I didn’t know how it was not to have you
I didn’t know how it was not to feel
would’ve I rather have you beside me
now that I know you, absolutely not.
But if I knew you back then
did I want you
was it bad enough to make a scar
a scar that apparently would haunt me for ages
bleed into everything I dove into
make a difference in every decision I made.
Were my abandonment issues because of you
did you mean that much without me even knowing
besides genes did I have more of you
from you
did I want anything from you
of you