A few words
Will bring a tear to my eye
Or the feeling of many
But I never really cry
Not anymore
Except I want to
I fucking want to all the time
You’re glitter all around me
Glitter in the air
And I know there’s this goodness
But sometimes I forget that it’s there
And it gets lonely in my head
I think back to when it was just 2 doors
2 doors down
To my best friends
Now it’s 2 minutes thinking
Of what to say
To strike up a conversation
A common ground again
Because without our common room
What is our common ground
We love each other I know
I just get scared when you’re not around
And nowadays, you’re never around
I remember lying on your bed
Not talking
But sharing space and thoughts
What we come back to when we’re done
With that big otherness
In those moments I never imagined
Not having us
I see you sometimes
I still hate the goodbyes
Because it’s only snippets
From here on out
I’ll never lie next to you again
Forgetting that nothing lasts
But I gather up all of the goodness
I grasp at the warmth
I’ll be gentle I promise
And handle our us with care
I try and slow down time a little, if I can
Because, gentleness
Warmth
Goodness
And care
These are what I need to feel
From a person who isn’t there