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alone together

i take myself out to dinner

to a place i know i like

because i made sure to

write the name down

 

i’ll be 5 minutes early

maybe bring flowers if

the right kind is in bloom

just to see myself smile

 

and i’ll wear my nicest boots

a button-up with the

least amount of paint

and blood on it

 

clean-shaven, i’ll pull

out my own chair

order my favorite shitty

light beer and even

splurge on dessert

 

i’ll make sure i know

that i am wanted

that i am worthy

 

that i am loved

loved

loved