Justagirl

Have you thought

Have you ever thought 

about what you Would say

In a suicide note

 

Well I have

 

Dear Mom:

I would’ve stayed 

But you didn’t want me

I was constantly a bad sister 

Wasn’t a great daughter either 

Can’t say I blame you 

for always telling me 

That I was shit

 

Dear Dad:

I would’ve stayed 

Mostly for you

You told me you were proud 

And supported me

But I hurt when you thought 

I couldn’t because I was a girl

 

Dear Sis:

I would’ve stayed 

Maybe a little longer 

If you weren’t constantly 

Needing attention 

You left me no air to breathe 

But overall you were okay

 

Dear My Friends:

I would’ve stayed 

If y’all maybe cared

Not one of y’all ever liked me

Not one of y’all supported me 

Y’all all were too competitive 

And so fake 

But hey as long as everyone else 

likes you

 

Dear My boyfriend:

I would’ve stayed 

And for you 

it would have been worth it

Sometimes you messed up

But you loved me for me

Never wanted me to change 

And were my best friend 

And for that I truly have always

Loved you

 

Dear the world:

I would’ve stayed 

But don’t you understand 

You ruined me

How could I live up to standards

Fix yourself before you lose 

Everyone 

Because I’m already gone