These monsters are in my head and the ministers tell me that the prayers will get me through but the blue feeling I feel in the morning feels like a flu. But now that flu is taking over and I feel inclouserd but I\'m not a lone... No my thoughts are unknown but they won\'t go. No one knows how to help so they sit back with their phds and call me crazy. Well maybe it\'s time to change. MAYBE. I say while I sit and quit fighting so the fight is no longer a fair and the prayer is barely there.. BUT keep moving BUT the people start disapproving. So I have to start proving I\'m stronger than the roar of a beast but at the least I\'m closer to the north where it\'s cold and there is no warmth. You see there is no warmth for me.