I feel so guilty,
My loved one needs care,
More care than I can give.
I have given my all
And now I am suffering,
Suffering because I love her.
I have given her my all
And it is running out,
The tiredness is overwhelming
Taking my life from me,
That life which I have given,
Given to her
The most wonderful person in my world.
But she has changed,
Changed when dementia assaulted her.
I do everything for her
As she cannot do it herself,
And each day it gets harder,
And I get more and more tired,
Living one life can be hard,
Living two lives is impossible.
That time has come,
That time when my lover must go,
Go into a care home
Away from me.
She is already in her own world
And she has left mine,
The love of my life is no longer there.
My love for her will never fail,
I will always love her
And I know that we will meet,
Meet and be together again
When Our Spirits become one,
Become one once more,
As we sail together in our love
To infinity,
To infinity and beyond,
That love will never end.
But still I feel so guilty.