misskay

the hidden lies I dare not speak

So many words left unspoken

Everyone close to me knows but you

I can’t say them out loud

But I kinda wish you knew

I type messages to tell you

But I delete each one before it’s sent

But every line I have written

I have always meant

I want you to love me

But I also want us to end

My feelings are stronger than my logic

And it’s getting harder to pretend

Forever contradicting myself

I want you

I want out

Constant battles and

Always in doubt

Time is Passing rapidly by

The words I speak to you

Are mostly lies

I tell you the opposite of how I feel

What I tell you I think

Is not really real

Because I am scared of what could be

Another failed attempt of our love

Or you rejecting me