There is a sadness that is growing deep inside of me.
Melancholy
There’s a dam wrapping around my heart
I cannot release the stream of emotion flowing through my vessels
There it sits, clogged in the barricade, with no cracks or room for a leak
There she rises growing and overflowing
Sometimes I feel like stabbing a hole to release the fluid from this cavity
But this is not in my nature
I want to be better, I want to do better
Yet I don’t know how.
At times I try to isolate myself to find what is missing
It’s nothing and everything all at the same time
And now I feel myself drowning
Maybe I lost myself down at the bottom of the ocean, maybe I self destructed in some fatal explosion
This is not a cry for help, just an explanation for my actions
Don’t worry I’m on the path to finding my next distraction