My eyes keep betraying me
Signalling my state
My tears they hold me ransom
Demanding to be shed
My heart it cracks slowly
My strength seeping out
I wonder whether the relief would come for me
If the blood would ease it out
The pain, would it ease?
I reach for the knife
What stops me is I\'ve nowhere to hide
The scars I\'d leave behind
If I start
Could I stop?
What it would mean
I\'d have lost
Each day my thoughts come forth
They try to drag me down
I fight
I\'ve fought
I\'m losing my strength
It\'s daily this battle
This battle against myself
How can I win when I am both?
I am defender I am destroyer
So how can I lose?
In harmony I must rise
Accept the good and the bad
Each day try to find a little gratitude
Turn my back upon the knife
For it will not soothe
It will not ease
If I attack, my blood will run free
I can\'t feed its hunger
For it will devour me...