I wait and wait for you to just talk to me
I’m not sure what it takes for you to see
I just want you to love me
to see me as someone who cares
I’m not perfect but I love you...
I mess up, I do things wrong..
I try to do things like you want me to
But I mess it up too like crows attempting a song..
The more attempts i make I still end up with broken pieces
Without you I’m broken, a shell
You shutdown and shut me out all the while I’m in hell
Without a voice, response or text
My mind is surrounded by silence and darkness
Leaving me alone lost, vexed and perplexed
I feel the silence creep in filling my ears
An empty void swallowing me whole
My chest tightens and my mind screams
The fear of being alone keeps me humble....keeps me kneeling at your feet....
I don’t want to say or do anything that may cost me my seat....
Do I love you, or am I just a slave to my fears and in your control.....
I sit in the darkness begging for your love and attention like a lost dog for table scraps
I do my best to keep the pain and anxiety under wraps
You don’t notice or maybe you don’t care...
It doesn’t matter I can’t let go, to find someone that cares about me is too rare...
All I wanted was for someone to care
In the end I forgot that some people just pretend....